Ever since I became a proponent,
I have but lost my only argument
There is something new I now long for
A desire, however, impertinent
To ask you, if my efforts weren’t enough?
Or was my love overwhelming for you?
Or was I erroneous to stare with my soul?
Or was it darkness I bore that scared you?
But the answers to these will be futile
As I’d have to forget you, regardless
I’ve adjourned a case in your name ere
And I close another to end this mess
My love for you enriches day by day
It is but a truth of this life, and thus;
Sadly, we love the people the most,
Especially when they do not want us
Argument of you and love has progressed
A reason for this case has been devised
The cause is your mystical, warm aura
The effect is so compelling yet disguised
I feel as if I’m home in your presence
If this world is not all cruel and selfish
I feel as if the time has held its breath
If this inner chasm is being replenished
And I have seen my sadness in your eyes
The windows to darkness you’ve held inside
Our driven souls still long for something
Striving to not yield our crowning pride
I’ve only had a few moments with you
But it feels like I’ve known you forever
Reckon it’s true what’s said about old souls
They can, indeed, recognize each other
Now if you realise this too, do not come
For I dwell in a place; there’s no return
I wish you to be content and at peace
As time’s come for this case to be adjourned
Why shall I speak of the damage of love?
When it rejuvenates me just as much
In love, people happen to say too much,
But for me, words do not work as my crutch
I reminisce the time I fell in love,
As my remaining days go passing by
I’ve realised the only love I now feel
The unrequited as the end draws nigh
But what was so unusual about you?
An epiphany unveiled at one sunrise:
In darkness ere, I had craved for light
Yet stars were situated in your eyes
It was in the moment I gazed upon
A face fashioned by the hands of nature
There isn’t much left to my regret now,
As lost moments cannot be recaptured
Why am I estranged to this darkness?
Maybe I’ve been away for too long,
But shouldn’t home always feel home?
Why am I in dire need to belong?
As if this soul is deprived of life
As if this body is in swift decay
As if this mind screams for peace
As if this heart calls to be lured ‘way
Unwise, to have brought the goddess,
When she is of a different realm
Unfortunate, to have fallen in love,
As she leaves to retain her helm
Perhaps, this home lies deep within
For everything is, but mere illusion
Hence, I’ll reside her in my heart;
To feel her, even in seclusion.
Darkness my beloved home, I return!
I return, not whole, but damaged.
Fatigued by quixotic tendencies,
The prodigal has come back famished.
An outer world, so hostile and strange
Filled immensely with ignorant natives
The land where all good is forgotten
Where hatred itself is life’s matrix.
Though I’ve brought an odd mystery,
An enigma that requires my genius
A phenomenon, in foreign land;
A veiled embodiment of Venus.
Since, I’ve craved for my sanctuary,
I have returned to you, oh darkness!
Now I will restore my lost vigor to
Unravel demeanors of this goddess.
There is a path for all that lives
Yet no one follows the righteous
I’ve committed sins, been led astray
By those, I’ve loved ever timeless
I can keep digging my way to hell
Because it seems all too familiar
Perhaps, it’s not late to atone, so
I shall opt a path to help recover
But I will not leave my darkness
As it’s the only home I’ve known
And I’ll again find courage to love
A feeling, I’m determined to hone.
The child stretches out his healed wings
As a bird of sky, shouldn’t be Earth-bound
He feels the wind again striking his face
Rejoices in wholeness; without rebound
What he didn’t know then was, no matter
How beautiful a rose is, it still has thorns
So he begins again, seeking pastures new
Leaving behind all them deceitful dawns